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Tagged by: ohcaptainmycaptain1918
Nickname: none, not even Ash most of the time. It’s just Ashley.
Birthday: October 9th
Sexuality: Is there a word for someone who is definitely attracted to the opposite sex, but is also willing to engage in relations with the same sex even if they haven’t had that sort of experience and is still not sure because of said lack of experience? If so, I’m that. If not, just put me down as Het. At least it’s what I’m definitely sure of.
Time zone: Eastern… i think.
What time and date is it there now: 10:40pm, August 30th
Average hours of sleep I get each night: pfffft. I aim for 8 but I average 6 with an alarm clock and 10 without one.
Otps: Stucky (currently, the mcu fandom is just so great), Sterek (I haven’t gone back to that in a while because of all the wank that goes on with fans and it literally made being in the fandom a stressful event), Cherik (OH GOD THIS WAS THE BEGINING OF MY DOWNFALL. I swore I would NEVER ship live action characters because I felt it was a violation of the actor’s physical appearance and NOPE. I saw the movie and went home STRAIGHT TO TUMBLR to blog about it and I was gone. Just gone. One of the saddest ship to have ever shipped. So much porn tho, glorious amounts of it. All I wanted was for them to be together and lead the world into a new era of Mutant Supremacy. We will never forget the Divorce on the Beach. The kids got separated. It was so sad.)SasuNaru (Its the most canon non-canon ship ever in the history of ships), Johnlock (Sherlock, please who didn’t ship this), Thorki (I have a really bad habit of wanting Loki to be this whump character who was misunderstood and just wanted to be loved and as of the Avengers I’ve accepted him to be the little twat he is, except kid Loki- I have lots of feels for him), Billy/Teddy (Young Avengers, not much into the fandom since the series is over but they are great),
Last thing I googled: Fun things to do for free on a date. Weeeeee….
First word that comes to mind: Buck…y?
What I last said to a family member: ”Mom, we have all the ham in the world but not a single slice of cheese.”
One place that makes me happy and why: Universal Studio’s Islands of Adventure. It’s an amazing theme park thats why.
How many blankets I sleep under: 3; two thin ones and one quilt.
Favorite beverage: Soda, wut wut
The last movie I watched in the cinema: Guardians of the Galaxy
Three things i cant live without: My family, my laptop, my boyfriend <3
Something I plan on learning: How to become a financially independent adult.
A piece of advice for all my followers: Feel free to spaz over head canons with me. Seriously, it’s one of my favorite things to do.
Personal tumblr: This is it.
so Charlotte Bronte read Emma by Jane Austen and was really interested in this minor character named Jane Fairfax who was poor and would have been a governess had she not married well and then Bronte wrote her own novel exploring the plight of the poor governess who married this guy named Edward Fairfax Rochester in a novel called Jane Eyre and my point is don’t let anyone tell you shit about fanfiction.
is it permanent?
No but hold on. I know this moment tended to get laughs because of the nature of the dialogue and the timing, etc. but can we stop and think for one second that perhaps this might’ve actually been fucking with Bucky’s head in that moment?
Remember the look on Bucky’s face when he first registered that it was Steve standing over him? It was a faraway stare and a disbelieving smile; Bucky looked more like he was seeing some sort of angel than his friend who’d come to rescue him. In that moment, Bucky probably equated the two to be one in the same, namely because he still didn’t fully believe that Steve was actually there to save him. Bucky had been getting experimented on and tortured - how many times do you think that he hallucinated and saw things (of which, Steve was probably one of them) while strapped to that slab? How many times do you think he dreamed of getting rescued, or imagined seeing things along those same lines, only to quickly remember where he was and that there was no hope of him leaving the Hell he was now living in.
So then Steve really does show up, and all Bucky sees of him is his face at first. Yeah, maybe it’s filled out a bit more but Steve’s face is still mostly the same. When Bucky smiles and says, “S-Steve…” he most likely isn’t even aware that it’s actually Steve standing there - that it’s actually real life. It’s just another hallucination, it’s not real… But then Steve unstraps him and helps him up, and is this real? This feels real… But it can’t be… I’m going to die here…
Except now he’s standing, getting the first proper footing he’s probably had in days (maybe weeks), and now he’s looking to Steve properly for the first time and he has to look up. Steve’s broad and tall and this isn’t the kid he left back in Brooklyn, what is going on…
But he looks like Steve and he sounds like Steve, and he’s touching and talking to Bucky as though he were Steve, and he’s saying something about thinking that Bucky was dead? Maybe he is dead… because this isn’t the Steve Rogers I left, he didn’t look like this, how is this even possible…
"I thought you were smaller."
And you can’t help but wonder if that wasn’t just a well-timed quip in retaliation to Steve’s comment - and it’s certainly far more serious than just a simple, funny observation. “Oh, haha, golly Steve, you weren’t this size the last time I saw you - I thought you were smaller." It’s an actual admission that’s Bucky taking into question everything he thought he knew and once again no longer being sure of what’s real and what isn’t. Because when he’d first seen Steve’s face, he’d thought it’d been a figment of his mind. But then when he was helped to his feet, the fog in his head cleared just a bit, and it seemed like maybe it could be plausible - somehow Steve’s here and he’s getting me out of here, I’m not going to die…
Only to take one look at him and no, this isn’t right; this isn’t what I remember. And Bucky’s right back to square one - unable to tell fact from fiction and no longer positive anymore as to whether this is really happening. And that makes the look in his eyes when he meets Steve’s face again even more painful, because it’s that exact same faraway look he gave him when he first uttered his name with that vacant smile…
Like Steve is here, but Bucky can’t trust it to be true.
art by the amazing felixandria!!! we did that fanart/fanfic swap thing
At 2am, neither of them are asleep. Steve’s bedroom is dark, save for the blue-tinted television screen that’s splashing dim colors onto the wall. He and Bucky have barely gotten any sleep all week. They’ve been up since 3am this morning—but Steve won’t sleep until Bucky does.
Whoever you are, you understand me on a deep level.
The way Steve looks at Bucky
""but that book character has blue/grey/light eyes so obviously they’re white!!"" ://///
(Reminder that light eyes and blonde hair can be caused by conditions, such as Waardenburg Syndrome and albinism, but they are still real people that can (and should) be represented in media and such)
And also I can add that I have news for y’all, people can be black and naturally blonde
And literally people from ANY KIND can be a redheadand have freackles and such
So please, stop pretending only white people can have those characteristics, jfc, it’s sofucking annoying.
Boom de yada
Just to add on - While race is a very, very, very significant issue, race as we know it is a social construct. When you acknowledge that all people on earth have veeeery little genetic variation in the scope of things, it’s much easier to break oneself from the training of “only white people have this, only black people have that, only asian people have this trait, etc”
the funny thing ist though, even if a character is described as having dark skin, dark hair and brown eyes, theyre still being cast as white
It’s also worth noting that the fact that a black person has blonde or red hair doesn’t necessarily mean they’ve got a white ancestor kicking around in their family tree. Recent genetic studies suggest that the gene that codes for blonde hair in black African populations is completely different from the gene that codes for blonde hair in white European populations, and that blond hair among Aboriginal Australian populations is connected to yet a third gene. The same trait has independently arisen at least three times in humanity’s generic history, and only one of those cases is linked with light skin per se.
(Interestingly, this also means that the widspread belief that blonde hair is part of a complex of adaptations to low-sunlight regions is probably false, since populations that live in the sunniest parts of the world have their own blonde-hair mutations unrelated to the European one.)
Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titillandus
buckysteve ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ 쁘어어어얽 이제못한다..지쳤다
Love this lineart, just beautifully executed.
Inspired by a conversation with Blondell-gazette, I did this thing.
What can I say, I’m a color geek.
People who say Bucky Barnes is a villain need to be recalibrated